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(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes okay, so where do fexpers stand? Can we do away with them given our SETF-editor & populated infodb?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes what do we get out of populating the infodb with s-expression sources and editing with SETF rather than working through files?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: But adali? BB? The old ex-mit-ai-lab guy I met who now just tutors kids in math & DOESNT EVEN TEACH THEM LISP?! Or the other ex-symbolics people?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: but no, they want to "be reasonable", "hold jobs", "have a place to stay", "not do hard drugs" and on and on it goes
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: fuck patience. That attitude is why we don't have one now. If people had just generally been less of a bunch of complete girly-men at symbolics, or the MIT AI lab, or Franz, or or or we'd have something that's close enough to "troo lispm" for me, even if ascii would be unhappy about it.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: *shrugs* I'm interested in the lispm. BTC is incidental. Interesting, but incidental. Have sold my absolutely-not-a-lispm in the past & plan to continue doing so in the future. Last time around I was homeless, couldn't get rides to meetups, no ebay account etc. This time around, not so much.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: same one. lisp machine. bulletproofed case & sold to mass market as "save your kid in event of school shooting"
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: mircea_popescu lisp jobs exist for ~anyone who is willing to spend some time working for it. Sorta like northstar electronics & the dragonfly
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes I've no problem with working in BTC, but you have to understand that when I say things like "no really, I've 1 computer, ~400 usd to my name and a package of camels" I really mean it.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: wanted to know how ready-for-anything people are making electronics nowdays, seeing as I know literally nothing about hardware. ben_vulpes hola & idk, never soldered anything before so should be fun
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: managed to kill a x220 circuit board by swapping the screen to another, identical while machine was running. is this the sort of thing to 'fry' circuitry, and as a general rule I suppose no life fire electronics around CPUs?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform: unfortunately not. Am here because I finally have a nice setup where I won't get kicked regularly. While I have been reading some FFA and DC I do not have anything running at the moment
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform: exact same thing you or anyone else get from it. Focus, awake, music sounds real nice suddenly interested in life
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Inventory arrived from CA a few days ago and am rebuilding M. mircea_popescu well you certainly know how to get my attention..
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: I never got a chance bc fighting all the idiots in CA myself. Same with archiver.Got banned before was able to host in house someone OK'd me for.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: the order I was anticipating was: M release for tmsr (free, obo), then NNFG, then RSA. lobbes has done/ is doing archiver
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: aite. but ftr you can ASSIGN me stuff that I will do. eg, leaving CA, finding job. Eventually was convinced.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: danielpbarron where are you located? I'm in cincy getting a job now to pay for some flights to see people like you
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: am trying to get passport so I can just show YOU rather than fking around with low-fidelity comms
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: In my mind, lispm, or interlisp editor + fixed clim comes first. hence, have been following that route
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: FTR: what I bring to the table is the closest thing to LISPM available, and direction + productive discussion for those already down the rabbit hole. Non-alices need not apply.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: well for one, I'm not really prepared to sell M to the mass market & recently reached the conclusion that CLIM is backwards in a few fixable ways. #1, commands are to be computed by code walking rather than define-command & by using (declare) and FUNCTION-LAMBDA-LIST
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: dumbass. the reason I say nothing is because there is nothing to say about it other than "WIP". What, you need to hear about how pleased I am with (ALIAS 'f 'cl::defun)? gtfo'
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes I destroyed my machines, usb sticks using the BART track before leaving. recover my harddrive bitches.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: I dropped some code in there I'd like to not rewrite. Destroyed old machines on traintracks before leaving CA...
(trilema) gabriel_laddel doesn't care about 'white', but just so happens WMD (white male doctor) is far more talented than stanford semetic strange
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: some people learn about sex and go MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMME. Some people hear about sports and find it appeals to them. there is a wide variation in genetics & environments.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: trinque: dude whatever I heard drugs existed and sought them out by iterating through every human I could find.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform people end up in jail, the people who do "annie" typically are not the guys running an assay on it, etc. etc.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: the cartels are not sophisticated enough to read the logs & go "hey, if there is enough variation in alcohols for one of the world's most wealthy men to comment on them, perhaps also for our product"
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Kansas 'annie' from the 90s was supposedly far more powerful than the crystal available today because of the "dirty leftover reagents".
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Matter... matters. If you have leftover reagents you might get what is known as "shooter's dope". Got extra l-isomer for meth? Biker crank. Phosphorous? Pink champagne.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: My interest, incidentally is what OTC d-amph looks like on societal level. The yanks had racemic amph, Erdos had that + ritilan. Japs & Germans had meth. Nobody has had a d-amph free-for-all afaict.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform do you have a book recommendation for use of amphetamines in ww2? I looked a few times and nothing caught my interest
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Well for one, awfully interesting comparison - to a chinaman!? Completely out of the blue (yellow?). That his eunuchs did anything at all continues to be surprising to me, thought I guess floggings are useful motivation when you've no sexual drive?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Anyways there are no imaginative+curious people in SF, but the guy offering his sister had the right idea. Hm. Actually there was one now that I think about it. Two if you count the negro "man, I need some of what you've got". Fuck yeah Black America. Better showing than whitey.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: he city, because I didn't see a soul four hours (maybe two, idk). Found a doorbell with arab lettering and rang it furiously. I hope it disturbed them something awful anddsfsdfsdfewdshdslkhfdslhlkjfdshdskjfhds AHEM. Wasn't thinking that at the time, but a terrorist attack & subsequent rebuild seems more likely than any other route to improved publi
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ome and a weekend nights end at like 11pm because my generation deserves holocaust). This involved dancing around all over the place, even going so far as to pull out my computer & code onehanded, balancing on one foot, bobbing like a maniac, with lightbulb affixed. Honest to god, I can't tell you if ANYONE even lives in the whole western half of t
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Example: had the thought -- ~ _someone, somewhere_ in this godforsakken sodom must have an imagination, and a curiosity to match it! So I took a light bulb, placed it above my head like a cartoon 'idea emoji' and walked all of SF many times over trying to elicit some sort of novel reaction from the fri night 'partygoers' (ED NOTE: sf is a nursing h
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: n idea, or some form of sensory input bodily electrical resonance. MP's 'women are only useful as slaves' comes to mind. Are men only useful when tweaking? 'Bennies' were readily available at Los Alamos during MP. Did no-sleep-drive-and-read-johnny use? I can't find primary sources and am also digressing... Tweaking. Something WILL grab your intere
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: not a choice in the matter. A state of (Csikszentmihalyi) flow - forgetting to eat, drink, sitting in one position beyond any reasonable limit - we all do this when thinking anyways, but it can be interupted. When you remove the very notion of interruption what you're left with is tweaking, which is an awful lot like being enslaved, perfectly, by a
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: rable' it is simply has no academic interests & probably spends most of their time seeking or finding sexual release (ie #tweaker nation tumblr females. Notice, very few post about meth and the read much closer to 'Ive no purpose, need to reproduce, NOW. What you like meth? OKAYSUREWHATEVERMETOOJUSTFUCKMEALREADY'). The catch however is that you've
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: An effective summary of d-amph: it works, you're in control it and has no comedown (due to l-amph in adderal). Whereas meth (again no negative comedown aside from sleep & need to eat like pregnant (with ideas?)) will grab your conciousness and irreversiby chain it to your own interests in the span of 5-15 minutes. Anyone rambling about how 'pleasu
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: I have to move because people are coming into the room, but will drop an actual story with details here in a sec, or at least PM to you ascii
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform nah. understanding through observation can be performance-enhanced. is useful too.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: lolno. But when you "tweak" the ideas in your head start to drive rather than sane human things like "I shouldn't be fooling around with these love-glasses and the way they make the girls look in broad daylight" go out the window.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: then did that -- for 3-6 hours in the dead of night. Some guy offered me his sister's hand in marriage.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Nono, just different. Fuck can't find the link -- but anyways, I had the idea that it'd be easier to hold a lightbulb over my head and head out on a Sat. night in sf than to network with people one by one
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform d-amph is better in that it far less physical, doesn't cause oxidative stress, isn't as much of a "scheming" high and won't make you tweak to the point of tripping face.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform regarding addy: you're looking at this the wrong way -- people with shit security ALREADY hold btc. And tracking me down is easy. Can come find me anyday in PA.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: yo it'll sound like a bunch of excited / nervous engineering types discussing IP addresses, fake names & locations over lunch
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform palintir is right around corner from me. if I hear them discussing how to track down someone from btc addy over lunch == axe time sword time
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Oh I think I'll hear fear / desperation in the voice of one of these government people while getting a coffee.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform anyway I respond it'll boil down to "gut instinct". And that's fine, because we've all got different T levels, peni lengths, brain structures, heights and this determines what you're up for / can do.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: "yer not a man then!" OK ya, am total wage slave / bitch to someone willing to kill for it. fine by me
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: trinque 1. get a job at startup without having graduated from anything ever, with no network (CHECKMARK)
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes yeah -- when suddenly the _general public_ (ie gov/cia/fbi pensioners) realizes they need to hold btc and come to beat it out of whoever
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: but beyond that, I was applying to accelerators with this company because I don't want a real job
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: afaict, the lack of a CAD program to input the clean routines is the only reason I get interrupted by cleaners in whatever lounge I happen to be working in
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: totally hypothetical, I'm just sticking this on the end of "gimme job plz" emails along with some connective tissue
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Wait a minute. Pasteur separated racemates by hand -- so I should at least be able to tell "biker crank" (racemic meth) from "crystal" (d-meth)
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: 1000x magnification seems unrealistic - that being said: if I crush some product, take hundreds of images of each sample & use them as input into a neural network along with a 1-10 (bunk-absolute fire) rating y'think it'll get trained to recognize the real deal?
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: phf: the point being? Fwiw, I'm trying to forced march myself into some stable employment while crippled.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform: There is still plenty to do. CLIM's COM-FOO machinery has to be cut & replaced with "functions most often called on / FTYPE matches this as a valid ARG"
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Eg the other day it "didn't kick in", so I had another few mouthfuls of methwater, only to remember "oh fk, I have to have coffee or it won't work"
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Nor have I forgotten $ELSE. Simply overestimated own ability / underestimated the complete idiocy of surrounding populace
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: While I'm here: At no point did I forget that I'd agreed to build the archiver - however I was banned from the place I'd arranged to host it on 3(!) separate occasions.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Brånemark spent almost 30 years fighting the scientific community for acceptance of osseointegration as a viable treatment. In Sweden he was often openly ridiculed at scientific conferences.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Finally figured out how to score meth tho. Tis the bomb diggity & works exactly as I noted here in the logs prior to finding it.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: After that call + several others failing to pick up, I gave up on the whole thing. If you lived out here, you'd not expect sanity from the court system, or any established entity tbh
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes: tsmr as the only honest, straightforwards, USEFUL collection of humans I'm aware of...
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Will compile a report with names of doctors & so forth from paperwork I have, this adhoc bs is silly.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: ben_vulpes Stanford hospital is a scary place. They lied to me MANY times about how many xrays I'd get, that they'd let me get copies...
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Fed me too much fluid prior to anaesthetic, which flooded lungs when knocked out. Ended up in ICU for 4 days.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform surgon irritates me on a personal level + the first time stanford tried it, they fucked up
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Anyone who gives me good resources (pubmed refs etc) can have the video whenever I get around to it
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Speaking of which, am going to be performing self-amputation of right foot as it is in the way + I don't trust or want US doctors.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: Could do more, but my foot is busted & surgery takes ages to schedule b/c US 'healthcare' isn't etc.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel: asciilifeform nah. Same old thing -- selling M, treading bitch niggas and getting ~nowhere fast.
(trilema) gabriel_laddel_p: for the record, my "unacceptable behavior" was stating outright that windows has no place near the codebase. nor osx.