jfw: Well, no reason I couldn't have had an article out today, besides this accursed inner force that apparently doesn't want me to get (certain) things done and holds me back; as it held me back from getting presentations prepared expeditiously. I ask it - why? So far it doesn't answer. I recall also the advice to ignore it.
jfw: Then on reading that back the thought flits by: "quit complaining about inner forces and just do things already!"
jfw: http://logs.ossasepia.com/log/ossasepia/2020-02-14#1018415 - good point, I could be a better Socrates, the point is to be helpful rather than to "win"
ossabot: Logged on 2020-02-14 03:41:46 diana_coman: http://logs.ossasepia.com/log/ossasepia/2020-02-14#1018408 - tsk; jfw, add simply the question(s) they never asked themselves properly before spewing the common nonsense; in this case: why do you want to increase mass adoption? (and then from there on, until they run into whatever walls they choose, sure).
jfw: g'night all; and the last of those holiday pics WILL be published!
whaack: diana_coman: EOD Report: G: Read and tested out your vcodectrl scripts. WTI: Take more advantage of tools written by folks around here (jfw your clocking tool comes to mind) B: Woke up late (10am) WTI: Follow my own advice I gave to lobbes. I made the mistake last night of doing late night trilema reading.
diana_coman: whaack: and sign vpatches, too!
diana_coman: jfw: the trouble with all this "holding back" is that it has some significant costs that *also* accumulate, even if it might not seem so in the moment; for one obvious thing, the way the work on the presentations went was quite bureaucratic in manner - you'll end up taking whatever time is available but not really making the most of it; and fwiw the wallet work seems to follow the same pattern.
diana_coman: if there's no "why" then it means it's "for no good reason" and so -> ignore it already; note also that if you ~always get to work only if/when under pressure, then the logical result is that you'll end up ~always under pressure.
diana_coman: it's not a healthy thing (although it can even feel good in an unsustainable way, sure).
jfw: diana_coman: the bureaucratic manner of time usage hadn't occurred to me but seems apt, huh.
jfw: the ending up always under pressure makes complete sense
diana_coman: jfw: not to mention that management is by definition stuck with doing what works, so dunno, maybe you'd rather make sure there's something *other than pressure* that... works, you know?
jfw: being curious about or interested in something does work, though seemingly not on demand
diana_coman: jfw: also, what's wrong with/why don't you purposefully maximize benefits of any work you do?
jfw: Nothing wrong with. Maybe I'm not accustomed to thinking about how to do that
diana_coman: http://logs.ossasepia.com/log/ossasepia/2020-02-15#1018430 - how do you mean this?
ossabot: Logged on 2020-02-15 15:33:58 jfw: being curious about or interested in something does work, though seemingly not on demand
diana_coman: http://logs.ossasepia.com/log/ossasepia/2020-02-15#1018432 - the way it looks from here is that you ~never quite consider that at all really.
ossabot: Logged on 2020-02-15 15:35:45 jfw: Nothing wrong with. Maybe I'm not accustomed to thinking about how to do that
jfw: I mean that I'm not too aware of when or why that kind of motivation comes or goes, or how to make it more useful for me
diana_coman: that sounds like you need to develop a healthier curiosity, heh.
jfw: exactly
jfw: well hm, healthier as in generally larger? or... better somehow?
diana_coman: jfw: of a better quality & substance, yes.
jfw: How might I go about that then?
diana_coman: the way you describe it there, it really sounds more like "whims" although I wouldn't have said those fit you very well otherwise/generally.
diana_coman curses not being able to find a ref that was exactly on this.
diana_coman: jfw: the core of it would be more... systematic curiosity, heh.
diana_coman: as with everything else related to yourself, it also starts with actually looking at what and how it currently does (not) work for you, exactly; so take an example of something where you started curious/interested and then it ..vanished - where/why/when
jfw: I was & still am having trouble thinking of an example there; perhaps I put it badly as "comes and goes". Certainly things can get more difficult as you go deeper & require re-dedication - the wallet's an example there - or get buried by more pressing needs
diana_coman: hm, do you mean that difficult stuff kills your curiosity or what?
jfw: examples for the second being my scheme interpreter and gports work, which I haven't touched in quite some time though they're a ways from where I'd like them to be
jfw: no, doesn't kill the curiosity
jfw: more of a, "huh, this mountain is taller than I realized, better decide if I still want it"
diana_coman: jfw: ahaha
diana_coman: ~all mountains are taller than they seem at first.
jfw: that can be the fun of it too.
diana_coman: jfw: indeed; as long as you choose your mountains well to start with, that's the main trick.
diana_coman: and otherwise it's again about how you set yourself up really.
jfw: like preparing, finding the necessary resources
diana_coman is thinking how to structure all that goes in there so that there's some clear entry point and path; this part is not one I needed to structure so far so hm, might take a while.
jfw: a cache miss, huh? well no rush on my part
diana_coman: jfw: lol, worse (or better really from my pov!) than a cache miss; but yeah, it will have to wait.
diana_coman: one thing that sticks out though (and esp with how you approached this conference thing) is that you seem to be surprisingly unconcerned with making the most of resources around in general, not only time really.
diana_coman: I can't say if that's again one of those poisoned results of relative abundance/comfort generally or what exactly but it's certainly not helping you any.
jfw: hm. interesting, I'll try to keep in mind
diana_coman: jfw: btw, did you give a different presentation on the 2nd day or how was that split?
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jfw: diana_coman: yes, the second day I did "There Ain't No Such Thing As A Free Block". Some basics of bitcoin, how proof of work provides security, how it's funded. Only got it ready at the last minute of course...
jfw: Also got in a demonstration of dice password gen, to add some practical value, which seemed to go well.
jfw: dorion did his history presentation as a two-parter.
diana_coman: aha.
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